Athletes nightmare

by Mystery
(Somewhere)

Throughout my entire life I have been involved in competitive sports and nothing made me feel better then competing. One day at football practice my life changed in one play. That's all it took, I must have played 2334324322 plays throughout my lifetime and this one play would be the one I had been dreading my entire life. MRI revealed a blown out knee (Acl, LCl, hamstring). Now what, I never thought I would be the guy this could happen to, I know I'm strong minded and a leader but at this very moment I'm vulnerable and confused and feel the need to reach out because I'm torn up inside that my career ending injury happened. My first surgery was rough, I was on crutches for about 7-8 weeks post Op before therapy. Not being able to do anything at all is torture to me. I worked at PT trying to get full ROM but couldn't do it and needed a knee manipulation. This is where I'm at right now. One week after my knee manipulation and I feel like I might never walk the same again. I'm working hard and trying to stay positive but I have all these feelings that I can not control. I'm anger, depressed, sad, lonely, confused, and lost. Nothing seems to interest me at this point in time, everything I ever wanted I have right now and none of it makes me happy at all. When you asked me what made me happy those things would have been my answer. But what do you do when you have those things you always wanted and worked so hard to get that it doesn't even make you happy like your supposed to be. I'm writing this because I don't know what else to do. I really don't. This experience is definitely mental more then physical but the physical plays its part as well. Not being able to do nothing at all makes you feel like an out cast. Loosing everything you had and work so hard for, I never wanted to be that guy because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle this situation very well on my own and here I am. I don't have anyone to talk to about this, I tried to reach out to people that I pushed away due to anger and lost of self, it's real and does happen.

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Aug 05, 2015
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by: Anonymous

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Sep 19, 2011
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Having the same issues as you with healing
by: Anonymous

I tore my ACL last Ocotber, and had surgery in March. Didn't get decent range, so I had a scope done to get rid of excess scar tissue. Felt like a normal knee for 2 weeks, with flexion at more around 130 and 0 degrees extension. Then bam! the next week my knee was swollen to 3 times it's size, filled with fluid...I couldn't bend my knee to 125 any longer. And worse, when I would bend it, I had an eyeball size bulge of fluid popping out of the side of my knee (gross, yes).

My surgeon said it will go away on it's own. It did...but by then, it was replaced by scar tissue, and now my range is at 125/3. And I only get to 125 after an hour of exercises. I lose the range 5 minutes after I start walking. I also walk with a bad limp.

I'm frustrated, just like you are. I break down at physio, and I'm a person that never cries. Keep trying to work hard but sometimes it feels like it goes no where. All I can think about it what if I can never get back to playing sports.
Honestly, I think we both need to work through it mentally. Just be around positive people who will help you through this. The physical part will eventually catch up if you keep pushing yourself and not giving up. Also, keep yourself occupied. Try swimming, it helps get your mind off the pain.

Good luck to both of us! Hope you get better soon :)

Jul 18, 2011
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by: Anonymous

Thanks Kiki glad to know I could help you out some. Lifting really has been good for me. When I'm frustrated with what I can't do with my knee I can take it out on my other muscle groups. Even when I can't move the next day without moaning and groaning I feel accomplished and feel like I'm making progress with something. Plus I'm getting ready to return to basketball so I want to be as tough as I can be.

Jul 18, 2011
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it is rough writer,, i luv u
by: Kiki

it is rough, I loved your comment.. It made me laugh and feel better! thankyya made my day. and its so true when I start doing core I feel so good.

Jul 16, 2011
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It is rough
by: Anonymous

The whole situation sucks I know. This past year, my senior year of high school, I tore the same ACL twice and had the same surgery twice. Huge bummer, more so the second time.

But my biggest recommendation: DO SOMETHING.

This is so important for athletes!!!!! After my first surgery, my dad asked my pt if I should be getting in upper body exercise so I wouldn't get out of shape. It turned out they also did personal training at my pt place, and I signed up and started doing it two weeks after surgery both times. It really helped me out. I mean sure, I still walked in and out on crutches and still had the leg strength of a wet noodle, but while I was there for training I busted my a** working out my core and upper body, sweated, and felt like an athlete again. So try working out, personal training or on your own. Compete that way, by pushing yourself through hard workouts,and get those exercise endorphins. That way, when you do come back, you'll be so tough and so strong that nobody will f*** with you.

Jul 15, 2011
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Same boat...
by: Anonymous22

Hey bud. I know exactly how you feel. I tore mine 10 months ago... had the surgery 3.5 months ago. That means I had to take this softball season off. It feels like crap. I totally agree that it's more mentally and emotionally painful than physically. It's the toughest thing I've ever had to do. But instead of quitting the team for the season, I went to every game, tournament and whatnot not to watch from the bleachers... but to do what I could from the duggout. I stole signals from the other team, score-kept, stat-kept, caught balls, threw balls, odd-jobs.. whatever people needed me to do, and most importantly-- cheered. The moral support I gave my team helped them win gold at Provincials last week.

Now we're going to Nationals in a few weeks.. I'm torn with the choice of going or not.

Jul 14, 2011
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staystrong!<3
by: Kiki

i tore my acl too.

please don't give up! so many people have gotten through this and you will too! I know its so hard and people who have never had this happen to them don't understand.
When I'm discouraged I just think about how happy I was when I used to play sports and thats the motivation I need to keep going. I'll do anything to get back to the way I was before I got hurt. I want to run and play soccer again.
I believe that you WILL be back on the field again! It might take awhile but it will be worth it in the end.
I had a lot of trouble with bending my knee but if you just keep bending it and bending it eventually it will give way.

im here for ya! prayin for ur recovery!

Jul 04, 2011
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allision
by: Anonymous

Hey allison,

I was reading your comment, and i saw that you had to undergo three more addidtional surgeries to fix your leg and get it straight. I tore my acl two years ago and after my first surgery it wouldnt go straight, so I had to under a knee scope and that didnt work so i underwent another scope to remove scar tissue. It made my knee straighter but not a whole much, Im still missing 10-15 deggeres they say more scar tissue built up. My knee is painful and i miss doing normal activites without pain. Im still playing soccer tho, but its difficult with my knee. Im a high end soccer player too, i go to a d1 school on a soccer scholarship. I was wondering to you, what did theyy do your third surgery to make your knee better? My surgeron said he wouldnt go in and operate again, but i was just wondering, and if you could help me it would be wonderful! I might be able to convince him!

Thanks!

Jun 30, 2011
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Persevere!
by: Anonymous

Snap out of it, Anonymous, please. If you were an athlete, I know you know how to persevere! When the going gets tough, yes, there is a time for mourning, but then you must go on! Read your own letter to yourself as if it was someone else's. What sdvice would you give that person? I'm sure it's better than how you are treating yourself. Apologize to the people you hurt, tell them that you are going to try to have a new attitude and follow through. Things will get better!
When I tore my ACL and meniscus it was 2 years ago at age 44. I am a female firefighter and athlete. Cycling, running, adventure racing, weight-lifting are my hobbies and passion. Most of my friends have been made through all these activities. My injury changed my day-to-day life completely. I couldn't work, obviously, and I couldn't enjoy my everyday activities with my friends. And, since it was my right leg, I had to depend on my husband to drive me everywhere.
Not only did I have to rehab from the ACL repair surgery, I required a 2nd surgery due to scar tissue and I had to be manipulated. After the 2nd surgery my progress stalled again. I couldn't walk without a limp because I couldn't extend my knee fully. I took a chance with a third surgery because I just knew I couldn't live with my knee at that level.
Well, it's been 14 months since my last surgery and, although my knee isn't 100% (never will be), it is so much better. I'm back to work, I can bike 100 miles with no problem, and I'm walking without a limp. My running, however, is minimal. I miss it but I'm happy to have all my other sports again, thank goodness. Yes, I get angry and upset at times, but after losing a few friends to cancer recently, I don't let myself wallow in pity. Those poor friends would love to be in my position.
So please, move forward in a positive way. Persevere!!! Try some new activities. Cycling and kayaking are great. Be happy you have people that care about you. Start with apologies and go from there.
Wishing you the very best,
Allison
P.S. Thank you to my husband for putting up with me and for getting me through an extremely difficult 2 years!

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