Kate's ACL surgery (full story)

by Katy
(Pittsburgh. PA)

hey everyone,

i tore my acl in November of 2010, in the last soccer game of my season. I'm 15 now, it was my freshman year, and i was a very good player, i started on varsity as a striker. and When i tore my acl i could not get over it, and it took me a long time to recover. i just got cleared in June, and I'm starting back up again, into my sophomore year of soccer. But here is my story:

i was chasing a rebound, and there was nothing in my way or on the ground, i turned back when the goalie got the ball, and my knee twisted and i fell down, at first i felt this terrible pain, but i tried getting up and it hurt even more, i fell back down,and i couldn't get up. i thought i was going to pass out in front of everyone in the stands, the other teams goalie told the ref to stop the game, and when i was sitting on the turf, i knew my soccer career was over, i didn't even know what the ACL was.. :/ but the trainer took me in, and i couldn't walk, and i couldn't stop crying, but the next day i missed school and went to a doctor, he knew right away i tore my ACL, and i got xrays just to make sure. Yeah, it was torn all the way, there was no way of fixing it without surgery. Me and the Doctor talked about what i could get, and we made an agreement that i would get an ACL of someone that was dead. (theres a word for it, but i cant think of it right now) so after that i had to keep bending it, and i went with my trainer everyday after school, because the more you stretch it, and work on the bending, you wont hurt as much coming out of surgery. So, a month after i tore it, the big day came, and i was getting surgery, not going to lie, surgery was one of the scariest thing's. But the surgery itself wasn't bad, i went to the hospital, waited for a half hour, they took me in a room, the doctor talked to me about the possibilities of things happening, and they gave me a shot. this was the best part, haha. it made me all loopy, and crazy and stuff, i couldn't even feel the butterflies in my stomach, so they wheeled me back to the surgery room, the last thing i can remember is them putting a mask on me.. When i woke up i was laying in a bed, my dad next to me, and the nurses asked me how i was feeling & all. i really wasn't in that bad of pain from what i remember. i left really quick, and the nurses wheeled me to my car. and for the next days after that, i sat on my living room couch, and yes, the pain was unbearable. i slept through most of it. & i remember breaking down crying on the couch, but a week after, i went back to school in a wheelchair, i couldnt walk for 2 & a half weeks, but after the first week of surgery, i went to the doctors, and there i got my stitches out, it didn't hurt at all. But i had alot of swelling, so they had to take fluid out of my knee, it was kind of weird, they numbed me,(which was the worst part) but then the took blood and other fluid out of my knee so the swelling would go down, it even felt a little better after. But then, it was all about physical therapy every day, and doing all my exercises, my knee was definitely getting better. i went to the doctors once a month for 7 months. i had physical therapy 2 times a week. they continued to get harder more and more every month, the last month was mostly running on the treadmill, jumping, and building up muscle. Then the final day came, and my doctor said i could start playing and practicing, and i ended up playing in a game 2 weeks after that, i honestly was terrible at first? i thought everything was going to be fine, but when i stepped onto the field i was just nervous and uncomfortable, and i thought i messed my knee up even more, i didn't play for a month after that game, something felt wrong, so i went to the doctors, and he said everything seemed fine, i was worried, but thankfully, it turned out i went back in a little early, and i played to much, and i iced it down alot more, and it got better. FINALLY. so my doctor gave me a slip that said i was cleared, i was so happy, but i really didn't have much emotion getting back in, i just felt very lost, because i knew i wasn't that good.. and it's going to be really hard. :/ but i started practicing, and getting ready for high school season, and running alot, i was very sore at first, and my soccer skills went down the drain, but i am gaining them back day by day. This is where I'm at today, we had a practice Wednesday to run a mile and a half, but to make the team you have to be able to run it in 11:30. first time i ran it, 14:45. i am so mad, i honestly am really bad at running now, i dont know how i will ever be good at soccer again, when i run in this brace, it slows me down, and it is hard for me to run in even. i feel embarrassed when i run, because last year i was leading the team, always making people catch up to me, now, i can barely keep up. :( It's hard for me to push myself, because i feel like i will never be back to the player i once was.. im really lost, and i wish i had someone to talk too, none of my friends understand how hard this was for me, not that i want them to take it easy on me, they just expect me to be on my top game, and i cant do that, at least not right now.

Anyways, if anyone would like to say anything, just comment, id be happy to hear any advice or anything, I'd really appreciate it.

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Oct 26, 2015
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Nov 26, 2011
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i know how you feel ha
by: Anonymous

i feel the exact same way you do now. ive played soccer since i was four years old and i love it. ive played club for 4 years and highschool soccer. i was only able to play high school soccer freshman year and half of sophomore year. i tore my medial meniscus sophomore year and had that surgery. i came back to playing after about 3 months and was totally fine and felt back to normal. but junior year, i tore my acl and had that surgery then i came back to playing after about 7 months. about a month after that, i completely ruptured my acl again in the same right knee and tore my lateral meniscus and my mcl. i had to go through the same whole process all over again. i had that last surgery march 23, 2011 and i still have a hard time. im at about 8 months and i feel no where to where i was the last surgery at about 7 months. the last surgery i had to have surgery on both knees though at the same time, cause they needed my left patella to replace the acl since they had already took the right patella for the first acl surgery. after all the surgeries ive had, and especially the last, taking my good left knee that was never hurt and having surgery on it for my right is horrible. i feel as if ill never be the same again and i just cant. things are soo hard, i can barely run and just so many things that i do hurt. even the slightest things hurt. i feel your pain though and it is hard, but you gotta do what you gotta do and try to get back to who you were before all the injury. goodluck!

Oct 25, 2011
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I did to!!
by: Anonymous

Im 14 and inm a freshman and i tore my acl playing basketball and i think that your story really helps me think that i will be able to work hard enough to be able to play again. Thank you!!!!!!!

Aug 04, 2011
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HELP
by: Anonymous

I am a female soccer player too, just had my acl and im now deciding whether i am gonna ever play soccer again. I played at a high level and i love doing it, i had planned to go proffesional soon, but now people around me are telling me i will do it again if i ever play soccer again. I am not sure what to do? Advice would be helpfull x

Jul 29, 2011
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Me too!
by: Jael

Hey,

I am 15 and tore my ACL as a sophomore last year in September.
I was playing defense on varsity in a pre season tournament, and was getting the ball from this girl when my team mate came to help me out. She came from the left side and we all ended up in a pile.
I got up and my knee felt really weird. I tried to flag my coach down to get me off but he did not see me. so I kept playing, it started to feel better, but then a girl took off down the field with the ball and I was chasing after her when my knee just collapsed. I layed there till my coach's and a trainer came out. Eventually I went to a Dr. later that week, had an MRI and was told I had torn my ACL. I did pre op therapy, and had surgery in October.
The pain was not too bad for me. the only thing that hurt sometimes was therapy!!!
I got cleared to play at 4 months but did not till 6. Your not the only one, I played so BAD my first game! I was scared and very tentative. I really did not play well. But after a few games it clicked again! IT will come! it just takes some time! you just have to trust your knee and not worry about it because that slows you down!! I did not have to wear a brace for this knee, but reasantly I hurt the other one and have a brace which dose feel like it slowes me down! I hate it!
I felt slow too! when we have conditioning to get ready for the season I am SOO SLOW!! I feel so bad! I used to be one of the fastest girls on my team! Now I am in the middle:(
But I am sure it will come back!!!!

Just keep it strong!!! That is what will keep it safe! Make sure your other leg is strong too!

Hope you get back into it! Keep us posted!

Jul 26, 2011
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Just Keep Working
by: Bart - SII

Katy, your situation is so much like a lot of athletes I have worked with. They work very very hard through the rehab, counting the days until they can get back on the field, and then that first practice they feel lost. Almost like they have never touched a ball before. They feel awkward, embarrassed, and like they are letting everyone down. It is normal to feel this way - after all, everyone told you before your surgery that you would be good as new in 6 months. Unfortunately, that isn't always true. Even after the 6 months of healing, and all of the hard work, there is still a lot of work left to do to get your skills and confidence back.

You have to keep going though...you can make it through this. It just takes time. Every day that you run, or practice your ball skills, you get a little bit better. All of your hard work pays off if you keep going. It might take another 3 months, it might be 6 more before you feel back to normal...this isn't bad, it's just how your body is recovering. Some people take 1-2 years to get back. But if you keep working hard, and don't give up, you will find success.

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